Look around you, look around you, look around you!
Do you think that you have some form of intelligence? Do you think that you are wise? Do you think that you can distinct things from good and bad?
If so, why on earth do you deny the wonders of Allah?
Allah constantly in the Quran tells us signs and miracles that only He has created but yet we cannot grasp these signs, we cannot look beyond our little world of desires, we cannot realise that there is more to life than just chasing unvaluable things.
He the most Wise, consistently gives us a sign and say that these are for those who reflect, these are for those who think, these are for those who are intelligent etc. Does that mean that we are stupid? Yes!
Life is not for play and entertainment. Unfortunately nowadays people have come to consider the next world as a figment of our imagination and have given up on the prospect of entering Jannah. Aouthobillah!!!
Even worse there are so many muslims out there that have taken the position to say the unbearable… “the people that say the shahadah will end up going to Jannah anyways even if they spend some time in Hellfire” What!?! Did I just hear that?!!!! What has happened to the ummah of prophet Muhammad (saw)? Why would you even want to enter such a horrible place?
The only conclusion that I can come to is that you really and truly have a faulty with your aqeedah! Your belief and eeman is weak and you need a quick fix, or else shaytan will prey on you like a wolf preys on a sheep.
Run, and find a class that will enable you to get in touch with your spiritual side. Go and realise that this world is nothing but a mirage and that the afterlife is where we belong. Just think about it, just because this world is all that you know does not mean that there is not a light at the end of the tunnel. Actually to be frank there might be something dark at the end of the tunnel (hell).
Stop being in your stupid bubble chasing males, chasing beauty, chasing money chasing clothes. Man was created weak and feeble and thus you will always become of a slave to something. You chose what you want to become. An Abdiphone, an abdgucci, abd50cent, or the best of them all Abdullah.
The choice is yours but make it quick before you take your last breath.
Anything good that I have said comes from Allah alone, anything bad is from me and the outcast that will on the day of judgement remove all of the blames that we will put on him. Shaytaan!